i have a dream

This Friday, a member of our church congregation passed away after his long illness. When Mr. Kim closed his eyes his wife and son wailed so sadly. The word of death is so painful for us to accept it, especially to families and close relatives. But after the funeral worship on next Tuesday, Mrs. Kim has to overcome the pain of her husband’s death. Someday, I would also face this kind of situation and I might desperately want to overcome that pain quickly. How can we live when we lost our family member? We can still live our individual life by a dream. Mrs. Kim has to live rest of her life without Mr. Kim and his son, Jin, has to survive without his father. But from now on they have to focus on their own dreams or visions. This is one of way to overcome the pain and I think a vision is my hope to live my life. I have a big dream. Since I was 17, I wanted to become a medical missionary. For last five years, I was not sure whether I could go to medical school and walk into the mission field. But now, I have a faith and passion that I really want to be a medical missionary and reach out to poor nations. Every day I dream about my future, whether it would be fun or hard. Until I reach my goal I will keep studying and challenge myself. Because I want to develop myself as I approaches to my dream.

i love you mother

After our English class covered the topic of Mickey Mantle’s life I learned that I should express I love feelings to my family. We discussed that Mickey regrets the fact that he did not say how much he loved his father while his father was alive. So I learned if I do not say it then my family would never know and I will make a mistake like Mickey made. I decided to open my heart. Since my parent moved to San Francisco we often communicated by emails. When we were living together I did not noticed how important they were. But now I know their each positions were so valuable and greatly supports my life. To express my thoughts and feelings, this Tuesday I wrote an email to my mother. I could just call her and say that I love her but to be honest, I did not have a confidence to express my love while I was listening her voice. On email, first I explained to her who was Mickey Mantle and his relationship with his father. Then I told her what made me to say that I love her. After I send this email I felt lighter than before, as physically and mentally. Next day she wrote me back. The first sentence on her email grabbed my attention.
She said “Thank you my daughter.” When I read that sentence she touched my heart so softly. In last few months, I was very depressed and felt lonely for some reasons. Also I often cried in the dark because I missed my parent so much. But when I read her email, all those pains and tears were gone. All I did was saying “I love you and I love you so much.” My mother gave me a double of love that I offered to her. If I did not expressed my love then I would never receive this kind and love feelings from her. I wish someday that, when we are face to face, I tell her that I love her very much and thank her to give me a birth.

My left leg has bruise

Last Friday, my friends and I were playing around at the church and we decided to show whose leg is more flexible. As we stand, one leg should be stretch out to the sky. While I was waiting for my turn I became so excited and I believed that I will be the best. But I was wrong. My flip-flop slipped and I fell to the ground strongly. My left hip and thigh was directly hit the ground. I almost cried because it really hurt. But as time goes by it did not hurt as much as first time, so I did not care about it. This Monday after I took a shower I saw my left leg’s thigh through the mirror and I shocked. There was large and purplish bruise. The size was about my fist. I was worried what if I can’t use my left leg future. So I start look up the sources about the effects of bruise. Through the websites, I found that if a skin turned to purple or dark red color that means the cells inside of the skin has been damaged or killed by certain force. Tuesday, I told my mom and show a picture of my bruise, which it was much larger than yesterday. I know she would be shock also but I was glad to tell her about my bruise and I was also waiting for her to give some treatment. She told me to go and talk to pharmacist in Wal-mart. So I did. He told me that there is no treatment for the bruise but just wait until the cell develops and become healthy. The pharmacist also told me there would be no later problem. So now, I feel better. To rid of my bruise, all I have to do is waiting. By this ugly fat bruise experience, I learn I should protect my body to live healthier.